Jason Tartick continues to be processing his break up from ex-fiancée Kaitlyn Bristowe.
“Kaitlyn meant so much to me and still currently does, and I get so worried,” Tartick, 35, mentioned whereas chatting with former Bachelor Nation host Chris Harrison on “The Most Dramatic Podcast Ever” on Friday, December 8. “I want to preface this … I just get so worried about the repercussions of what I say and I care, still, so much for her and it’s really, really hard for me to have these conversations. So, I’ll do my best.”
Tartick broke down in tears as he confessed to Harrison, 52, that he felt like the tip of his relationship with Bristowe, 38, was “on the horizon” earlier than they introduced their break up in August.
“You haven’t even asked a good question,” Tartick joked to Harrison after he gained his composure. “It was a tough time so to go back to it, it’s tough. I’m also bad at that, I’ve worked on it. I always have been someone who hates showing my emotions, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.”
Tartick recalled having a troublesome time being weak whereas he was competing for Becca Kufrin’s coronary heart on season 14 of The Bachelorette, which was simply mistaken for forcing tears on digital camera. He mentioned he was really making an attempt to “hide every tear” till filming ended so he might “go nuts and cry” in personal.
Since he and Bristowe referred to as it quits, Tartick admitted to feeling “very sensitive these days.” He struggled to speak about his former fiancée, whom he cherished “so much,” tearing up for a second time on the podcast.
“The way I would say it, there was a lot of deteriorating complacency. … F–k,” he mentioned as he began to cry. “So that’s my answer.”
The breakup wasn’t a “shock” to both of them, however Tartick nonetheless didn’t need to consider that his four-year relationship with Bristowe was coming to an finish. He admitted that he’s cried extra up to now six months than he has in his total life, however he felt good about letting out his pent-up feelings.
“You don’t want to belittle someone who’s lost a significant other. You don’t want to compare but a big breakup, a divorce, it’s a loss,” Harrison mentioned to Tartick. “You are mourning the loss of something and it’s different than losing a significant other or [my wife], Lauren [Zima], losing her dad, but at the same time, you are still losing something and you’re losing someone and what’s also difficult about that is that someone still exists. They didn’t go away. They did not die, you’re going to see them.”
Tartick and Bristowe did, in truth, see one another final month at Harrison’s wedding ceremony to Zima, marking their first reunion since Tartick moved out of their shared house. Tartick described the expertise as seeing Bristowe as “friendly” and “respectful” on a November episode of his “Trading Secrets” podcast.